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I turned 19, wow its been a fast ride so far. I can almost pin point the day 7 years ago someone asked me what I would be doing in 7 years, my teacher Mrs. Del Santo asked the class one by one. She was unique like that, I mean who asks "What will you be doing in 7 years?" Only her, she was one of the best teachers I had. awesome. I remember thinking "being 19, I'm gonna be in college and on my own possibly in a dorm" I was right about the college thing, I wish I would've gone straight to a university or a specialty school. I know what I want to do. I know what I want to be, I know what degrees im shooting for. I should've left.
So yesterday was the actualy birth date. It was ok, one of my friends threw me a "party" at his place, what a nice guy. It was more along the lines of eating cake and watching movies, none the less, it was a pretty good time with good people. I recieved so many phone calls from my friends wishing me a happy birthday, it was nice to have that kind of attention. I really appreciated my family calling me long distance to wish me a happy birthday, its always the best part of my day, when I get to hear my aunts, uncles and most of my cousins singing me happy birthday. best family ever.
So lately I've been binging on the following artist, let me know what you've been binging on:
1.Blackalicious
2.Dj Shadow
3.Mos Def
4.Wu-Tang Clan
5.Atmosphere
6.Bjork
7.Animal Collective
8.Fiona Apple
Its mostly been urban hip-hop. I've never really been listening to it as religiously as I do now. Its a nice change. I've been getting interested in maybe learning to do work the tables. If that would work out then I could do gigs at clubs and stuff, I'd get paid extremely well. I'm crossing my fingers for that, it would be so amazing if it worked out.
So last night I had a mind altering experience, I still remember my thought process because in the morning I thought, "why am I thinking about this?"
(it went kind of fast and I didn't bother to make sense of un-formed sentences)
-take the eyelid and split it only until the end of the eye
-stop shaking
-sit in a cloud nice and warm
-what if we turned into F's
-pete looks like brian from class
-he's got big bags under his eyes, like they can melt all the way down to his feet
-veins, why were they green? how did theyt get them like that?
-stop shaking, shake it all out
-my eyes are on fire
-if i wait then my throat wont be on fire but the flame feels like its growing.
-I cant even eat this, then ill kill it
-if I hide in my coat, the cold cant get me
It was a night of crazy thoughts and somehow, those are the best nights.